I recently heard John Eldredge say that the hard things in life that keep showing up - the anxiety, the worry, depression - are ways that Jesus knocks on the door of our hearts.
What a reframe.
I’m finding myself in a familiar place lately, where worry and anxiety can come rushing in at any given moment. For me, the struggle is often connected to money. In my adult life, I’ve never had much more than I needed, and often had less than life demanded. It seems like smooth sailing is usually the calm before the financial storm - and that proved true again last week.
My old, fleshly self would have been spinning for days.
Looking for solutions.
Angry and irritable.
To see a hospital stay or a surprising amount of taxes owed or an unavoidable business expense as Jesus knocking on the door of my heart… that’s giving me pause.
I’m learning to ask, “God, what do you want me to know about my fear? What do you want me to do?”
Yesterday, He spoke to my heart: You will never be more joyful in this life than when you are continually depending on Me.
So, I’ll guard my heart from making Money my god. Money can’t save me; can’t make me happy; can’t guarantee my future.
God can, and He promises that when I keep my eyes focused on Him and His kingdom, He will keep His eyes on me and will meet all of my needs.
I’m learning to open the door.
